04/11/26
B a l a n c e
Striving for balance within and without;
To realize I am You & You are Me (for better & for worse)
To see we are all unique souls crystalizing, all part of The Whole.
On Earth it can feel quite a challenge to assimilate the concept of All One, with what looks like such extremes in good & evil.
Yet as for accepting and giving love… To living In Love, to being open and free in this moment: It is helpful to see ourselves everywhere. As we are.
Appreciation with Creation
When moving forward, when working, when being: we can move from loving acceptance, as opposed to moving from a perceived lack {fear separation illusion}. In order to always let our energies flow, to live unstuck, it is helpful to relax into the acceptance of emotions; to work to balance our selves by recognizing the opposing view or understanding; to see our preferences and opinions as being changeable, a cumulation of life experiences and soul crystalizing. We can realize we are ever consistently part of the moving and evolving energies on earth. We can move fluidly and in gratitude for the gifts of this moment without latching ourselves so rigidly to any specific idea or attachment. At the same time in this act of balancing, we can focus via our free will on that which we wish to cultivate and have more of, allowing our Love to carry ourself forward and to be expressed without judgement. And we can find humor in this entire human experience, as our souls forever crystalize.
In gratitude for love expressed as light, spreading life throughout the universe, never ending, always growing and learning and evolving …
have fun out there, in there, here :)
infinitely we are, All One ♡
03/20/2026
spring equinox
patience faith gratitude trust
Viewing life with love, faith and patience * grateful for what I’ve experienced.
Excitement for what is coming. Excited for today, for what gifts the universe will bring. For being here now.
Ability to shift. Mindset is a decision. Love love love love.
Mindset energy + emotion
Unbound by the current
Release from shackles &&
feel Excitement & in love with life
- enjoy right now -
Find the beauty in the present moment
^*^*^ play ^*^*^
+* earth play *+
You are Not Alone
Spirit team helping You
Patience
Stay in the present, a Present
a play, playing in Now
No rush through the gifts of Now, in play
Reclaiming sovereignty over the mind, with energy flow, with thought-forms
Let me Love & let me Play having Fun ___ focus
Free will. Do not be deterred , have forbearance, ever growing and ever evolving so love this process … take advantage of what can be experienced in the present.
Humility. Flowers are unaware of each others beauty, they blossom regardless * allow yourself to bloom
12/22/2025
The Atma Bodha (book of soul knowledge)
Book III
The Aphoresmata of The Logos
Whatever exists, exists as a Whole, as God, or is a part, or emanation from God.
In the Whole as an angel, unconscious of the Whole, is an undescended spirit.
Parted from the Whole, yet a portion of the Whole, and unconscious of the Whole, is the Law of Differentiation.
Parted from the Whole, with the Whole, yet external to the Whole, is a descended or fallen spirit.
Parted from the Whole, with the Whole, yet conscious of the Whole and knowing it has fallen away from, and that it should, and can, return to the Whole, is the Law of Reascension.
That which is parted from the Whole, turns again to the Whole, is the Law of True Repentance.
That which was parted from the Whole, and has again returned to the Whole, is a part of the Whole, remains so forever as a blest spirit, and is the Law of Perfect Atonement.
The above is an quoted from The Sacred Tarot by Elbert Benjamine (C.C. Zain) 1882-1951 (The Brotherhood of Light). The Sacred Tarot quotes an original exceedingly ancient and rare work, inscribed on palm leaves, and found in the remotest part of India and Tartary - The Atma Bodha.
For your consideration, a comparison of this text to the The Law of One.
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a year has past. my studies have shifted. 2025 has been a time of work and focus. of practicing more than searching, action more than reflection. growth continues amongst the physical lessons. A drive for a solid foundation of self love and soul strength, while remaining open, vulnerable and love focused, continues to be my trajectory. surrendering to what is before me, the balancing act between desire and appreciation for what is. I find it difficult to publicly journal at length at this moment, for words are so personal to our unique perspective, and our paths so unique. thought-forms come and go. being here now, in the present, a balancing act of kindness to self & other - selves, one for a lifetime.
in patience, faith, gratitude, and trust.
meditate with focus on being love & sending love
06/27/25 interlude
12/24/2024
Love, is
Love is wonder, joy, appreciation, compassion. Love is gratitude. Love is freedom, laughter, consideration. Love is community. Love is unity. Love is being open. Love is dance, music, harmony. Love flows. Love is a frequency, an elevated, light vibration; Love is light. Love is sharing, caring, kind. Love is giving. Love is you and me. Love illuminates. Love is seeking. Love is free. Love is seeing. Love relaxes, strengthens, bonds. Love sings. Love heals. Love is faithful. Love is wild; Love is order. Love is growing, evolving, becoming. Love is crystalizing. Love is trusting, forgiving, truth. Love sees through the illusion, through the heart, into the soul. Love is the present, everywhere. Love is the beginning, Love is the end; there is no beginning or end to Love. Love is patient. Love is timeless and spaceless. Love is nature. Love is the natural state. Love is a state of being. Love is being.
Love is everything you are, and nothing you are not.
♡ ♡ ♡
I see myself in your eyes…
12/20/2024
The Choice
The choice will be made, over and over, again and again: the choice to experience every moment from a place of love, or from a place of fear. From a place of cohesive togetherness, compassion and all one-ness, or from a place fully immersed into the illusion of separation. We train ourselves, through deliberate conscious action, to habitually make this choice. We then become more like our habits, we become used to living in love, or used to living in fear.
It is wise to not forget this is a choice. It is part of our human experience to forget, in our day-to-day, in each moment of existence. We get lost in thought-forms, we face loss, scarcity, and so on. External sources attempt to program us into a state of fear. We make mistakes. Life provides gifts, life provides catalysts. Through all of life’s experiences, we remain in a position of making this choice.
When we are focusing via our free will on an incoming thought-form entirely and completely, we can forget all else and get lost in it. If the thought-form is fearful, we energetically change. We will physically tighten with tension. One of the most important outcomes of a meditation practice (which can be unique to us all, I see no right or wrong way to practice-) is the ability to step back and separate our selves from all thoughts, emotions, and even beliefs. We are not our thoughts, yet when we are lost in a thought, we can energetically become (manifest) that thought.
Each and every one of us is dealing with a situation in which we can evolve through love or through fear. Through this short time our souls have incarnated on earth, we get to evolve via our own free will. The choosing of love in each moment is the one that resonates within me as being the path of evolution worth walking. The path of love and optimism is a choice. It is not a one-and-done choice, except for the choice to keep making the choice… a deliberate, conscious choice. Over and over. Again and again.
When struggling to energetically exist in Love, know that all that is not love is an illusion. So have fun with your struggles, and don’t get tense with seriousness. Focus in gratitude, not in lack.
When we send love to fear, when we simply love all, including fear itself, the love/light shrinks the fear/dark. Love creates more love. I love you.
11/26/2024
♡ reflecting: miraging: repeating ♡
9/05/2024
The Love Path
When we focus, meditate in, and follow thoughts which are formed in gratitude, we build inside ourselves a powerful force. Gratitude is a place of loving kindness. ♡ ♡ ♡
The present reality can become a healing chamber by the consistent choosing of love and compassion over fear and judgement. Each moment being a choice between the path of heart, where love flows through us, or the path of fear, with the illusion of separation. Love is the path of less suffering, the root of gratitude.
Love neutralizes fear. This is how we learn to love the thoughts which arise in our physical bodies from fear: watching with love and appreciation, seeking understanding and compassion for all thoughts. By not getting involved and feeding the fear with more fear, heavier energy can then easily pass through, float on, having imparted its lesson, if there was one, for us to integrate, and move forward with, or move on from. Lighter thoughts are far more worthy of our energy and focus. The fear of fear itself has in my experience been far greater than facing that which I fear.
Intuitively, we know love feels like a lightness within, and so thus we can know which actions are loving, by what feels light and good to do: such as to forgive, as oppose to hold grievance. Such as being productive, instead of stagnant. From intuition is the perfect place to act. From our internal energetic intuitive feelings, we can weigh our choices, and make the lighter choice. For literally, our intuition will display to us what is light and loving, and what is dark and heavier. In this physical plane, which we may manifest from a spiritual plane, nothing is quite “perfect” (or everything is perfectly imperfect, as to create variety and life itself). By paying attention to our intuition, we can evolve higher in our quests to be more of that which we desire to be more of…
I will love always & forever
7/29/2024
Faith
Faith makes us more powerful beings. For me, Faith starts with the fundamental belief that we are more than this one physical body, having a lifetime - we are more than this physical form. We existed before, and we will exist after. We are fundamentally built from love. Love and light are the most powerful forces in the universe. We will all be taken care of. All wounds will heal, all destruction will be righted, and all chaos will be put back into order, with enough time/space or space/time. Faith allows for the kindest of actions to ourselves and other selves. Faith helps us make actions from a place of love. True faith can break the façade of materialistic pursuits, and aligns ones focus to our individual higher purposes.
To live a life nurturing ones own faith, is to have a very powerful force within.
7/21/2024
Riding the wave of life - we don’t have control of the wave, but we control how we surf the wave. ♡
6/07/2024
Don’t Fear the Heart Slays
Life on earth will provide us with unexpected gifts, as well as provide us with unexpected pain. Staying in gratitude for all experiences, re-centering into our self awareness, with our own forms of non-resistance, and our physical habits which provide us with calm and health, seems key to healing through our struggles, to growing through our catalysts, and becoming more crystalized in our individual self evolution.
Feeling heart pain or heart break can be something to appreciate, for it will leave us with many new understandings, and is a reflection from when unblocked currents of love were in full reign. The path of heart break can lead to one of deep self love, if you stay open during the experience. If you become fearful of the feelings of pain, you may become blocked/closed even more still. There are both positive and negative feedback loops which exist.
When your heart and soul are focused on appreciation, gratitude and acceptance, it is not a long-term resting place for pain and sorrow. A practice of non-resistance towards emotions as they arise, will help to move beyond the intense pain, the heart slays.
Without the dark we cannot fully appreciate the light. There are many sayings such as this that I feel true, and yet when given a strong catalyst, a painful loss, I will still get thrust off-center, always a player, with lessons to learn.
In the ebbs and flows of life, in the stormy raging seas of which we do our best to navigate… be sure to rest, be sure to practice habits which bring you health, joy and internal strength. I am in gratitude, not just in appreciation of the gifts and tribulations of life as spoken above - but for my present. Moving into a stronger peace with my true self, closer to not needing external stimuli, recognizing distraction for what it is…
We are fortunate to have the ability to engage, grow, learn, change… to allow ourselves forgiveness and healing… and to let go of patterns which do not serve us. ♡
5/20/2024
withIN, not withOUT
A very important truth to consider in times of craving or desire or when feeling a “lack”, is that love comes from withIN, not from withOUT. From our insides love is felt, not the outside world. The outside world can turn us ON or remove blockages (the turnoffs). The outside world can allow the love to flow more strongly through us by acting as a catalyst to our inner blockages; it is always from our insides, our spirits, that love flows upwards.
We can fully be in love, exist in love, alone. Yet relating and connecting is of primary importance in this physical realm - physical touch can be so very healing and inspiring. Both truths exist. I wish upon any soul that is here now and reading this, to know you are not alone, we are not alone… we are all connected, all part of one gigantic single cell. You are me and I am you and I love you. Stay open...
5/06/2024
Life can change so quickly, within a short period of time. Catalysts. Along with gifts, we are given challenges. Change is a constant on this earth plane. Love is the thread which holds us together… I wish upon all of us laughter that flows freely. That we express, create, wake up energized, and fall asleep grateful. That we are gifted as to smile by default, and uplift everyone around us. That we trust in our world, that we have faith, and that we do our very best each day. That we stay present in The Present. ♡ This is a moment of intense sunlight. I went solo to the high desert...
4/07/2024
A collection of ideas to contemplate ♡ Breathing (relaxed, deep, slower) solves a lot of potential problems, as does flowing in good posture. Both excellent breathing and posture build within a positive feedback loop of loving energy, letting go of fears and trusting in Love to embody you ♡ …which leads to the importance of letting go of our fears as a constant practice, forgiving our selves and other selves, and letting go (of the trappings and confines of) our mistakes, of our labeling, and even of our strict internal judgements of right and wrong - this is not a realm of knowing ♡ If something is not working for us, we may create change… Finding insights gained from a different angle, possibly from time/space separation, meditation, and from rest ♡ This love makes me feel free… ♡
